Why do I fear to develop spiritual disciplines in my life? Because I’m fearful of the natural outcomes. For so long I never fasted because I was fearful of getting bad headaches or shaky – side effects of me not eating dinner at the right time. I was so tied up in what I know naturally that I forgot to recognize that God is with me in all things.
Why do I fear doing or saying the wrong thing in a relationship? Because I have worry from my past and am fearful that I’ll be rejected and thought less of. I can be tied so long to past experiences in relationships & friendships, past hurts & wounds, that I forgot that my God has provided me with grace for every season and He still loves me even though I don’t deserve it. And I forget that God has taught other people how to love, to love even me, despite my shortcomings. I forgot for a moment.
No longer do I want to be fearful of those things that would hold me back & be strongholds in my life, because they will only hinder what God wants to do.
Romans 8:15 – The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”
1 John 4:18 – There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made in perfect in love.
I want to live a life that is full of God’s love, free from doubt & worry & fear, because it is for freedom that Christ came, freedom from past hurts & mindsets. God, I thank you for your love & for your abundant grace that helps me through each day. Teach me Holy Spirit, to walk in each day free from fear. I don’t want to be held back but I want to move forward & grow into the daughter you have created me to be.
